One day I came across a video in which a muslim cleric had been telling me how woman are treated in Islam. At that moment I thought I never saw a woman interpreting the Quran or any Islamic books. I thought because men mostly dominate Islam they are dominating women so I thought I myself would learn Arabic and I would understand the Quran and tell everyone how good is Islam. But things started to change quickly as I started going deep into Islam. I was shocked by the unscientific claims in the Quran and the hadith. I came across theory of evolution and Islam's story of creation of humans. Even though I was a muslim I believed in science. The more I tried to understand the relationship between Islam and science the more I understood how Islam had claims which were unscientific and illogical. Then I came across ex-muslim videos on YouTube who introduced me to more and more contradictions and false claims. I started asking doubts about Islam and existence of God and credibility of Muhammad. As a result of those doubts I thrashed by my parents and most of my muslim friends couldn't answer my questions. My mom would simply tell I should blindly believe in God and Islam and if I asked questions she would simply reply that my mind was infiltrated by devil and I should pray. As of now I had understood how deeply Islam was engraved in my family to such extent that my mom being a biology teacher didn't believe in evolution. I stopped asking doubts to my family but I continued my research on Islam. The more I researched the farther away I would find myself from Islam. As time went I slowly stopped praying and fasting and stopped believing in God. Later I got to know about the gruesome practices of Muslims around the world like killing apostates, female genital mutilation, hating and killing of dogs and so on.